Category: Questions & Wrestling
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Do I Really Love You?
I want to love You The way my soul actually craves for You. I want to hold unto to You The way my spirit thirsts for You. But I find myself Doing what my body pleases. It’s so confusing. My heart asks me Do I really love You? People think I love You. But I’m…
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Thoughts
Am I being greedy? Am I giving up again? Am I standing for what’s right? Am I in the wrong? If I chase what’s in my best interest Am I being selfish? If I act like I’m not hurt Am I being selfless? Grey lines, blurry times One moment I’m certain Other time I have…
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Fight Still
Sometimes I want to write Because that’s the only way I can express all that’s on my mind. But then I don’t Because nothings feels right. I see everybody around me I try to make them feel seen But for all my good deeds & intentions All I had to show for it Was fights…
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Toxic Love
Love is choice Real Love is scarce True Love is divine Toxic love is loving your neighbor just a little bit above what you love yourself. It’s not manipulation It is choosing to be manipulated It is believing the lies When all actions points to the truth. It feels like giving grace It comes…
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Open my Eyes
In my curiosity I asked God What do you see when you look at me? If seeing is believing, Tell me what you see. I see my likeness in You That’s my very image right there The Apple of my eyes Holy, blameless and spotless. Are you trying to tease me? I asked in doubt.…
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Nobody Understands
They say they do Sometimes they listen Sometimes they’re present Sometimes it’s soothing Sometimes I want the distraction. Does anybody really understand? “Trust me I’ve been there” “I can imagine” —But can you really? Nobody understands And I don’t know that I want them to. Experiences that I cannot share Realities that their thoughts wouldn’t…
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Silos
Isolation caught me once again I’m too vulnerable alone I’m fragile & weak on my own Every-time I’m alone I fall So many people around me Yet I feel so lonely Too many burdens I feel no one would understand I don’t want to be judged I don’t want you to loose hope So I…
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Lost War
Nobody is safe Not me, not even You There are more casualty than I can number We’re all facing the same struggles And being defeated in isolation. Who handles the Oscar’s? They need to give one to each of us The way we act like there’s no problem. Or maybe we’re all just pretenders And…
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Falling Again & Again
I find myself falling again Failing the exact way. Even when I see it coming It overpowers me yet again. The pattern is consistent Suggesting I’ve run out of God’s graces. Remorseful, so I take the blame Then your blood reminds me You washed my sins away. How long until I learn? How many cycles…
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Lust – The Appetizer
Lust is my enemy Saps all my energy Lust has rizz It has a subtle way of dragging my attention One look stirs something in my soul One thought causes something to behold But when all is said and done I’m never satisfied. If Lust was a full course meal The starters are nice making…