Category: Questions & Wrestling

  • War In My Mind

    It’s a war zone in my mind  And the prize is my Sight! A fight to ensure that I’m blind  A victory to make me see the Light. Sometimes my mind is a mess When I reflect I tend to see things clearly It’s a battle and a test  And I didn’t know about this…

  • Good Soil

    Am I good soil? This thought my heart toils  What makes a good soil? Shit, manure and turmoil  Am I good soil? Can I be trusted? Am I too sour? Are my words sedated? I try to be good soil I tried so hard. I want to be good soil, Soo badd. Sober reflections  every…

  • When nothing makes sense

    Where do I start from? Trust? Let’s talk about trust for a minute  Is it possible to trust wrongly?  When is trust really broken? If my expectations aren’t met  Isn’t that a breach of trust? Who really knows how this works? I decided to stop running in circles  And put all my eggs in one…

  • Can I Surrender Enough?

    How much am I willing to give up? When all of me is what is required  Every time I think I’ve tried  I’m reminded there’s more you desire. Literally, it makes no sense  Logically all it does is stress  But who would I rather impress? The Almighty God or the rest? How can I loose…

  • Can Never Be Me

    Some days I understand suicidal people Some days my only motivation is discouragement. I question my very existence Am I doing the right thing? Does this make sense? Even if I get answers to this, who would believe? Everybody says it doesn’t make sense Am I stupid for ignoring everybody Is everybody mean for not…

  • Lost in Lust

    PG 🔞, yet exposed to nudity 10 years earlier. Wayy ahead of time to comprehend So the journey began. Scenes & Images that sticks Growing up on Fantasies. It’s just youthful exuberance, so they thought, but it’s the fruits of a sown seed. Germinating to Pornography, Then comes masturbation Doesn’t feel like you’re hurting anybody…

  • Ideas, Questions & Struggles

    Impossible is nothing. Why do I struggle to believe? That these dreams are conceivable. It may not be very clear yet But I know it’s bigger than myself. Dreams and imaginations, A safe space for creative exploration Time is a running illusion Waking up to an Idea. Reality and introspection, Fears & Doubt carefully caressing…