Do I Really Love You?

I want to love You

The way my soul actually craves for You.

I want to hold unto to You

The way my spirit thirsts for You.

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But I find myself 

Doing what my body pleases.

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It’s so confusing.

My heart asks me

Do I really love You?

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People think I love You.

But I’m only trying to be vulnerable. 

Our relationship isn’t for people pleasing.

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I see the foolishness in my decisions

And I hear the lies in my ambitions. 

If I love You I should really obey Your commandments.

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My faith is threatened by hypocrisy 

Responsibilities are keeping me busy

Shame doesn’t make it easy 

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Here I am trying to love.

Praying I don’t mistrust 

What is my hope?

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You’ll finish the work that You started 

You’ll water this love that You’ve planted 

You’ll stir this heart that’s in process 

You’ll help me  focus 

And bring me back your presence.