Help My Devotion

Misplaced priorities.

How I let myself get easily deceived 

Everytime. 

Indiscipline has become a bad habit.

I’ll do it later — I say 

I watch as procrastination eats up what’s left

of my devotion.

Religiously I try to show up 

In my own strength I move until I’m fed up

Zero intimacy just motion.

Please Lord help my devotion.

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Outside it looks like I’m living for You

While that’s the big picture,

My soul doesn’t feel aligned 

And my spirit is lean. 

But somehow I know how to say the right things.

I say what I should do 

And then do what I didn’t say

It’s crazy.

Don’t take your spirit away from me

That’s my earnest prayer

When I fall consistently 

Would you heal me, I ask 

As I fear there’ll be consequences.

Would you help my devotion? 

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I’ve been busy & acted stupidly 

I’ve been too busy for You.

Isn’t that just Ironic?

I’ve wanted You to understand my excuses 

And accept all my excesses 

I repent from my mischief. 

I’ve aided the enemy to steal my time 

I’ve ignored your still small voice 

I’ve heard my spirit cry 

While my flesh smiles. 

But I should know better 

I’ve tasted Your presence 

I’ve lived in reverence.

Renew in me Your right spirit 

As I starve my flesh. 

Let my spirit rise 

And let my soul be untangled from it’s lust

Let praises rise from the inside of me

Let me forever live in alignment to Your Will

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Help me to stay 

Help me as I wait 

Help me to watch and pray 

Help me so I don’t faint 

Help me to be consistent 

Help my Devotion.