Help me to stay
Even when I don’t want to pray
I’ve been running in circles
Living in cycles.
My enemies chase me like a prey
And Help me is all I can say.
I’m trying so hard
Or so I think.
I’ve not even been able to write
And for all my good intentions
I still don’t seem to do what’s right.
My mind is a war zone
And my heart knows no peace.
Your Spirit whispers to me
But I’m too weak to listen.
Shame is drunken with my strength
Guilt is feasting on my energy
I have nothing left but You.
Sorrow and pity keep sending me invites
And when I indulge
Lust steals what’s left of my productivity.
Feels like I’m forever stuck in a pattern
And my knowledge fails me every-time.
Frustration is no stranger to me
Somehow when I begin to drown in unbelief
Your Love picks me back up.
O what little faith I have
Look how undeserving I am Father
I keep falling and falling again
But You never complain about lifting me up.
My enemies, don’t be happy because I’m in trouble
I have fallen down, but I will get up.
I’m in the dark, but the Lord will be a light for me. (Micah 7:8)
Even if I don’t know exactly how
I’m certain this is not my end.
I have triumphed over sin
Not by my power or my might
But through His spirit in me.
I have overcome because of His Love
This is exactly why He died for me
So I don’t have to struggle with my flesh
But yielding to His Spirit!
And when I’m being accused
I’ll remember I have a right to stand in God’s presence because of Jesus!
When thoughts try to bring up my past
I’ll say to her, my Lord has made me free
And I am free indeed.
When worry surrounds me
And anxiety launches a counter.
When my world seems to crumble
When fear sends its prompt to my heart.
When I don’t know what next to do
And when there’s nothing else to do.
When pity wants to throw me a party
When my vices offer me pseudo peace.
When distractions is all I can think
When I want to try to do right
— Remind my heart to Rest in Your Love.
Let my life be your worship
And help my mouth pour out rejoicing
in my darkest nights.
Until I know and my enemies are aware
That I have chosen to Rest in Your Love
For the rest of my Life!
My Desires 
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