Hey! Happy New Year guys!✨
I’m back here again.
I remember starting last year with fear
And I learnt courage is doing it afraid.
For the longest time I didn’t know myself
I’d reflect, only to end up living everybody’s version of me.
I’ve journeyed from being indifferent to lost,
Then from no longer lost, till I wasn’t found.
I tried self-help books, podcasts & seminars,
Motivation & crazy routines
I found how to get everything I want, except myself.
I was no longer lost, but I wasn’t found.
Somewhere on my self search journey
I hit a road block, and right there in my weariness & confusion, Jesus found me!
I was no longer alone I was found
But I was still finding myself.
Since Jesus found me, we’ve been journeying together.
He’s so obsessed with me & won’t let me go
I told him I was going searching for myself
He said he knew the way, perfect!
Somebody finally gets it I thought
This void in my heart will be filled.
Enthusiastically I asked what’s the way
He said I AM
sorry you are what? I asked
I am the way, the truth and the life.
Allow me take the wheel, he offered.
I know you’re good Jesus, and it’s not you it’s me. I don’t think I trust you like that.
I’ve come this far on my own,
I know what I want, and I know how to get it.
I just need your help on my journey
I’m not ready to travel another route.
Clearly He told me — I am the Author & Finisher
I am not going to finish what I didn’t start.
That my friends was the Genesis of our issues.
Finding myself, I continued on my path
He surprisingly didn’t leave me
All the roads I tried were closed
I could sense Him giving me the eye
Frustrated, defeated & tired of doing it myself
I finally surrendered it all to Him
Jesus take the Wheel!
He did and gave me rest!
Last year I journeyed with God
He led me through my worst fears
Uncertainty, Pain & Promises
Hurt, Healing & my Hidden secrets.
Sometimes it was too much for me
I remember jumping out multiple times
Running away from Him as my strength could
Going back to the deceptions of the streets.
Shame & Guilt ever actively advising me.
Jesus Himself always comes dragging me back
I’ll never leave you or forsake you Desire
Can’t you see? Trust me and focus only on me.
Who am I?
Why do you love me this much?
Why haven’t you given up on me?
Am I even worth it to you?
I have stressed you and I cannot promise otherwise.
Who am I Jesus?
You are my Desire, I’ve chosen you to showcase my goodness and my loving mercies to the world.
I’ve shown you yourself, now brace up the journey is still long and I’m with you Always!
Welcome to 2025 guys! Happy New Year again!
My Desires 
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