PG 🔞, yet exposed to nudity 10 years earlier.
Wayy ahead of time to comprehend
So the journey began.
Scenes & Images that sticks
Growing up on Fantasies.
It’s just youthful exuberance,
so they thought, but it’s the fruits of a sown seed.
Germinating to Pornography,
Then comes masturbation
Doesn’t feel like you’re hurting anybody
If you’re alone & in the confides of your space.
Sex don’t taste like a forbidden fruit
when you already have its seed in you.
Fantasies turn cravings,
Cravings birth diverse suggestions
These suggestions turn addictions
Sadly these addictions turn normal.
Viscous cycle.
The normalcy becomes shackles
They take different forms, with one goal
Being bound to the Viscous cycle.
How can I feel lost, if I already feel normal?
Would I need help if I believe I’m fine?
How should I feel alone, if we’re many?
What’s the big deal if everybody is doing it?
Would it be cool to be any different?
I know myself, I can stop whenever I decide.
Shackles, Lost in Lust.
Saved by Grace
Rescued by the Blood of Jesus
Seeing through the deceit
The undoing of past.
I know I’m no longer that person,
Yet my soul yearns for those cravings.
Now I should know better, but
somehow I still fall to the same things.
In the same way, against my very own beliefs.
So deep, it feels like it still has a hold on me.
It’s tiring, & there’s no middle ground.
Shame & guilt like a hungry dog waiting to pounce at the slightest fall.
Past ways, smiling and waving at me
But I see through the darkness in that
The easiest route- Hypocrisy, makes no sense.
Reality Check.
I journeyed far away till I got Lost
Now I’m saved, I have to journey my way out.
Will I fall, face roadblocks and
miss my way sometimes, most certainly.
But remember, I’m not alone this time
I have the spirit of God inside of me.
My journey now is to study God’s word
consistently, praying fervently.
Fellowshipping Earnestly,
Till my soul is saved completely
And repeat continually.
Till we are all free!
My Desires 
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