“Who could ever divorce us from the endless love of God’s Anointed One? Absolutely no one! For nothing in the universe has the power to diminish his love toward us. Troubles, pressures, and problems are unable to come between us and heaven’s love. What about persecutions, deprivations, dangers, and death threats? No, for they are all impotent to hinder omnipotent love,”
(Romans 8:35 TPT)
I’ve gotten away with a lot of things
Some I can tell, and others it’s just between me and you.
I’ve committed a lot of sin
More intentionally than not.
I thought I had boundaries
I’ve lived life wayy contrary to the things I say I value
I’ve embraced my vices, and watch myself do all I said can never be me
I have experimented & gone full rebellious
I’ve lived in doubt of your every word
I’ve boldly questioned your promises
I’ve laughed & scorned your servants
I’ve publicly embarrassed you
And privately cursed you
I did all of these and Yet still loved me
You still called me your own.
I’ve tried to be sleek with you
I’ve acted & pretended to be interested in You
I’ve used you to get what I want constantly
I’ve straight up lied to your face
I’ve denied you more than Peter could dream of
I’ve run back to my old ways more often than not
I’ve lied in your name & stolen from you
I have a bad track record when it comes to You
But you loved me through all of this
You still called me your own.
It makes no sense to me
The Nigerian in me smelt something fishy
Like you’re trying your trap me with this love
So I can pay for all my sins.
So I ran way from your love
I went as far as my legs would take me
I intentionally avoided your presence
I had a blind eye & shut my ears to your voice
I chose to rather love myself the way I am
I got lost in myself until it hurt
When I thought I’d lost it all
When I was ready to give up on myself
Your love was standing right there
Reminding me You’ve never left
When I thought I had no other option
You said You Love me
You still called me your own.
I still struggled to believe this love
I knew there was something I didn’t understand
I thought it was me, it had to be
There must be something special about me
I must really be God’s favorite
The way he keeps coming after me.
I lived in ignorance of the truth
I was never interested in finding out why
I ignored & avoided all your calls
I buried myself in other important things
I would occasionally think about you
But you never made it to my priority List
While I was at it, Your message never changed
You said you Love me
You still called me your own.
Your love was way too consistent
It became annoying to me
I tried to drown your voice in substance
I distracted myself with trends & noise
I worshipped Escapism at its best
Anything to not guilt trip me on Your Love.
I did not feel worthy of this Love
I felt battered, wasted and unclean
Shame reminded me of our encounters
Guilt kept telling me there was no need.
In my pain & frustration, I sought for Your Love
I wasn’t sure what was or will happen next
I got tired of holding back
When I reached out, Your Love embraced me
And Immediately You say you Love me
You called me your Own.
Ohh what a Love!
All I had to do was accept & believe
Your Love came running with a warm embrace
Your Love saved me from myself
Your Love delivered me from my fears
Your Love gave me peace & joy.
I still didn’t understand this Love
Your Love began to transform me
It felt too surreal
I tried to pay for the Love
I wanted to pay back for all the time past
Your Love said to me
Old things are passed away, all things are New.
Shame & Guilt gave me the eye
They attempted to hold me down
But your Love gave me freedom
Your Love is giving.
In my confusion, You said You Love me
You called me Your own.
I still get carried away
And I cannot totally explain till today.
Your Love swept my feet away.
Your Love totally changed me
Your Love redeemed me!
Look how far your Love has carried me
I get to talk about your Love
I get to spend time with my Lover
I get to stay in the presence of my Lover
I get to bask in the goodness of Your Love!
I get to walk & journey with my Lover!
I’m far from perfect and You know it
Self righteousness makes me feel I earned Your Love
My mind judges & Tries to select who is deserving or not of Your Love
I’ve held back this Love I was given freely
I let Ego tell me I’ve done well to earn your love
Pride subtly makes me feel more deserving
I fall to the enemies deception
When I struggle with addictions
My mind begins to doubt this very Love.
In your mercy I am humbled
And you say You love me
You still call me your own.
How can I explain a love that never gives up on me?
How can I understand the depth of this love?
When I was at my lowest, You came down and picked me up?
When I was unstable, You guarded me.
I found out what made me feel special
I discovered why I called myself God’s favorite
It is This Love!
Help me to really accept Your Love & Live a life of this Love you’ve called me into.
My Desires 
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